Chronicles of Hairul, The beginning or The end?

On 4 February 2013, I did the unthinkable. Confess to her I did but think about it, I did not. I must be a fool for trying to win the fair maiden heart and now awkwardness reigns between the both..neither friend nor foe but two awkward acquaintance stuck in a cruel twisted fate of friendship. 1107am this was written. Continue later shall I..

Chronicles of Hairul, Broken yet Unstable

1.2.2013 is a date that i'll never forget. Full of happiness it has been for me yet it was never fully repaired. My heart is as broken as ever despite my many attempts to repair it yet my happiness arises when i heard we could still be friends and yet the heart is still broken, Fixing it seems to be quite a chore. Forget her, i tried but my wounded heart seems to remember and will not forget the devastation that was inflicted towards my fragile love. And yet i would not forget her..Foolish i might add...

Forget this matter at once and on to a side story of my life for once, on very same date, Was a day i could not forget, Full of happiness i have towards that date and gone was my hate..As i look at my fellow friends who cried with sadness towards their comrades who was leaving them, All i could do was look and look and look without the means to the end of their sadness. All i could be was happy so as for them to look at me without a reason to cry..

And yet another foolish me who have yet to explain what on earth i am talking about. On the above-mentioned date was Ngee Ann Polytechnic Hearing Impact Club Closing Ceremony. Full of performance it had and i was one of them i might add. Foolishly did a lot of mistake, i did. Yet full of forgiveness that they had for me..Lucky guy i am :D 

My hopes lies with knowing and forever not losing my current friends. Hopefully i'll still be alive by then to marry and have children! :D

P.S: Its Hearing Impaired**** Thanks Winny! :D

Chronicles of Hairul, Love ends with Rejection.

Today on  31 January 2013, i was rejected severely by the one woman that i look upon and shower with affections, it was like a sudden shot to heart by .45 caliber gun. it was one fine afternoon, in a class full of inspiring computer students about to start their lesson on brainwashing machinery. As i reflect back during this class, i was wondering what could i do to become a better friend to her so i went to ask her yet little did i know the response i'll get would took everything that is positive in my heart out of me. As i heard her response to my query, i felt as if the world crashed around me. Mountains exploded, people die, chaos reigns in the depths of the plane known as my heart. With fire words of flames that spelled out "No. Get out of my life! Don't message me or talk to me!!", Sears to my heart as my brain tried to defend itself against this ruthless attack yet it was futile effort as i fell to this pin-pointed accuracy attack. 

What was left was just a piece of my heart lying in the oblivion of my chest where my heart used to be..

Chronicles Of Hairul Part 2(Love)

It has been a long while since our protagonist has appear yet full of emotions just he fears.
Love has taken over his heart full of loving, caring and all the wonderful emotions.
Today he message the girl in question yet a reply was not received.

Full of sadness he has.
Wondering what has taken her abash,
Thus concludes this wonderfully bad poem.

Love is such a beautiful thing

Love is such a wonderful thing.Yes i am currently in love. My one first true love..How do i know that its love? Well first thing first, i kept thinking of her no matter where i am or what i'm doing.Secondly her smiles brightens up my day and when she's sad, i'm sad, she's stressed i'm stressed..i keep thinking will my future be with her? yes i want my future to be with her. i want be there for her, i want be with her every second and every hour of the day with her. i want to know how's her day..i want to know if she's ok..i just want to be with her..this feeling of mine is outrageously bursting forth with uncontrollable excitement whenever i see her face..Whatever she does looks cute be it combing her hair, taking a nap..i want talk to her i want to know what's her favorite food, game, books anything! I JUST WANT TO LOOK AT HER AND GIVE HER MY AFFECTIONS!! 

ZOMBIFIED!

ZOMBIE MODE!! good gosh! my biological clock is all fuck up and weird. Now morning is night and night is morning, ya think that with this kind of sleepings habits i might already became a vampire buuuuuuuuuut..no i'm still a living breathing human with just a weird sleeping habit, i'm thinking it might have turn me into a nocturnal creature! -_-""

My eyes are literally have eyebags (=_=)....
(∪｡∪)｡｡｡zzz.........
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What on earth am i doing?! I SHOULD BE AWAKE!! NOT ASLEEP!! arghhhh..(_ _)ヾ(‘ロ‘) hello? anyone in there? hahahahaha.......

A whole new world!

Finally! I CAN CARE LESS ABOUT THE WORLD! i finally let go of my habit to please others! Those who didn't appreciate while i was still at that so called "Pleasing Mode" YOU CAN SUCK YOUR OWN DICK (or vagina if you are a woman).

Foooh. Feels like a brand new day to me! hah no more emo mode! Happy happy! hahaha. But i'm still trying out this new dynamic mode of the blog. It seems cool but way advance in terms of editing the header background etc etc. Forgive me if it looks plain, i'll try to make it cooler in the next few days!

Now on to more pressing issues now that i'm free, Things to do,Let's update you guys or whoever reads this blog what i have been up to! First and Foremost, i am currently in Ngee Ann Polytechnic Year 2 in ECE division or Electronic and Computer Engineering division. My course is of course the titular division name which is ECE. Its one of the toughest course i have ever taken with math and electronic components to remember. Theories that are to be remembered all the way till the Final Year Project @_@. I'll try my best to remember them all! I am currently in several non-sport CCAs and only 1 sport cca which is sad! i been wanting to join sport cca for along. Oh speaking of which i quit dragonboat partially because its has been too much for me to handle it along with my studies so now i am currently self-training my body and afterwhich i will join back my karate dojo! muahahahahhaha! Secondly i want try out a couple of things like cooking dishes i have not done so, join a martial art tournament etc. This are the things i want to try out though!

Lastly i want to thank dear Jasmine Low Hui Min for your very old advice which was "Do not try to please everyone" i was a fool for not listening to you, i could have made my mental suffocation much easier -.-"  hahaha!