Chronicles Of Hairul Part 2(Love)

It has been a long while since our protagonist has appear yet full of emotions just he fears.
Love has taken over his heart full of loving, caring and all the wonderful emotions.
Today he message the girl in question yet a reply was not received.

Full of sadness he has.
Wondering what has taken her abash,
Thus concludes this wonderfully bad poem.

Love is such a beautiful thing

Love is such a wonderful thing.Yes i am currently in love. My one first true love..How do i know that its love? Well first thing first, i kept thinking of her no matter where i am or what i'm doing.Secondly her smiles brightens up my day and when she's sad, i'm sad, she's stressed i'm stressed..i keep thinking will my future be with her? yes i want my future to be with her. i want be there for her, i want be with her every second and every hour of the day with her. i want to know how's her day..i want to know if she's ok..i just want to be with her..this feeling of mine is outrageously bursting forth with uncontrollable excitement whenever i see her face..Whatever she does looks cute be it combing her hair, taking a nap..i want talk to her i want to know what's her favorite food, game, books anything! I JUST WANT TO LOOK AT HER AND GIVE HER MY AFFECTIONS!! 

ZOMBIFIED!

ZOMBIE MODE!! good gosh! my biological clock is all fuck up and weird. Now morning is night and night is morning, ya think that with this kind of sleepings habits i might already became a vampire buuuuuuuuuut..no i'm still a living breathing human with just a weird sleeping habit, i'm thinking it might have turn me into a nocturnal creature! -_-""

My eyes are literally have eyebags (=_=)....
(∪｡∪)｡｡｡zzz.........
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What on earth am i doing?! I SHOULD BE AWAKE!! NOT ASLEEP!! arghhhh..(_ _)ヾ(‘ロ‘) hello? anyone in there? hahahahaha.......

A whole new world!

Finally! I CAN CARE LESS ABOUT THE WORLD! i finally let go of my habit to please others! Those who didn't appreciate while i was still at that so called "Pleasing Mode" YOU CAN SUCK YOUR OWN DICK (or vagina if you are a woman).

Foooh. Feels like a brand new day to me! hah no more emo mode! Happy happy! hahaha. But i'm still trying out this new dynamic mode of the blog. It seems cool but way advance in terms of editing the header background etc etc. Forgive me if it looks plain, i'll try to make it cooler in the next few days!

Now on to more pressing issues now that i'm free, Things to do,Let's update you guys or whoever reads this blog what i have been up to! First and Foremost, i am currently in Ngee Ann Polytechnic Year 2 in ECE division or Electronic and Computer Engineering division. My course is of course the titular division name which is ECE. Its one of the toughest course i have ever taken with math and electronic components to remember. Theories that are to be remembered all the way till the Final Year Project @_@. I'll try my best to remember them all! I am currently in several non-sport CCAs and only 1 sport cca which is sad! i been wanting to join sport cca for along. Oh speaking of which i quit dragonboat partially because its has been too much for me to handle it along with my studies so now i am currently self-training my body and afterwhich i will join back my karate dojo! muahahahahhaha! Secondly i want try out a couple of things like cooking dishes i have not done so, join a martial art tournament etc. This are the things i want to try out though!

Lastly i want to thank dear Jasmine Low Hui Min for your very old advice which was "Do not try to please everyone" i was a fool for not listening to you, i could have made my mental suffocation much easier -.-"  hahaha!

Reliability

I must admit this topic comes up a lot in my head, i'm always thinking "Am i reliable to people around me?" to the point that it affects my interaction with people.Sometimes i withdraw myself from social gatherings just so i could reflect upon myself and my rights to socialise with people. Apart from that i tend to think negatively  about things around me surrounding my family and my friends.All this feelings could only be express in this blog which is my only source of expression in my world because no matter how much i try to express in my ways, people always gets the wrong message for example would be this evening at 7.15pm singapore time, i ask my mom why did she prepared dinner later, her reply was somehow different to my question, she told me that we never prepare food for guest during Hari Raya. Now this reply was very odd because what i ask was dinner at the present time and not about festivities food.So this comes off to me as unreliable because everyone of my questions has always been answered the same way by her so i tried to talk to her about it but as usual it ended the wrong way.

Another was that i asked her opinion on how to solve a problem that i currently have by giving her a table which i usually use for gaming i ended with a square shape table that consists a lower half that would not fit my 24 inches PC-TV. So being an ignorant one, i ask my mom on her opinion or in this case a solution that would help me with my problem but my mom reply was of one that really let me down and has lower down my self-esteem by a bit. You see i have this belief that a good child comes from good parents. In my case, i am apparently one of the worst child raised ever because based on past experiences and dealings with my mom who single-handedly raise me, i realise i have a very very unreliable mom who depends on others and her own spouse to do most of the thinking and despite all my positive thinking about her, her reply was one that disappoint me by far and has hurt my positive feelings i had about her. i told her that she's old and could not think anymore is saddening and her reply was that yes she's old and she could not think. i could only reply to her with sadness in my heart is "i thought i could rely on you, i thought you were old and wise but apparently you are not"

Her statement was one i could not let go of..Being old and making many mistakes, i thought she would have wise up over the years but i was greatly mistaken. Apparently being old does not equal to being wise. This was the glass-shattering truth that hits upon me, i was raised by an unreliable woman who my brains was born from, who i thought myself as pretty smart but sadly..it was just all wishful thinking on my part

You may think "Hey think positive! Now that you know you can change your whole outlook on life!" which is precisely what i am going to do! i am going to be a responsible person from now on! POSITIVE THINKING YO!

PS: but the matter with my mother is one i highly doubt that can be solve anymore. I give up.

April is a brand new week~

Good morning everyone, its 3.25am singapore time.i have yet to sleep despite school starting tomorrow. Why don't i sleep you ask? Good question but yet a question which i have answers to. The answer is simply that i am waiting for my S/W shirt to be done with the washing machine. Yeah im washing it late. i'll get back to you guys later after school...ah my bad i have to go to kee sun avenue today too so after that..Oh by the way Long story short; i met new friends, we bonded quite strongly. Currently studying for a diploma in electronic and computer engineering follow by a promotion to blue belt in karate (YESS ARR) oh and did i mention i am ngee ann poly year 1 now?

Job

Hey everybody! This is Hairul, Posting after a long long break. Just so you know, I have achieved my dream of going to Polytechnic and i even surpassed my initial goal of 24 points for O levels! Well apart from that, my karate is going swimmingly well though i kept coming late because of dawdling and tiredness from work. Speaking of which, i totally hate my current job which is being a sales assistant in shop n save.

Firstly the job itself is not that hard but it can be QUITE BORING especially when there is no customers.

Secondly is the FACING OUT activity that irks me the most because the supervisors,Managers. Team Leaders are never happy with our facing out. All we gotta do is face out the brands and pull them towards the edge! Sounds easy right? Well apparently the supervisors are not HAPPY AT ALL FOR SOME MORONIC IDIOTIC REASON. Everyday me and yong meng and radzi will get reprimanded by the darn MANAGERS. I'm not even sure what we did wrong! They don't tell us and kept on annoying us with their "We know whether you are doing facing out or not" bullshit. I said its bullshit because they can't even tell the difference whether we DID THE FACE OUT OR NOT. To add on to our misery, they keep lecturing us on how we DIDN'T DO THE FACE OUT DESPITE THEIR INSTRUCTIONS. Well all i gotta say is WTF DID WE DO?! EVERYTIME WE TRIED TO DO IT, EITHER YOU OR SOMEBODY ELSE GOTTA PULL US OUT AND RESTOCK THE SHELVES AND EVEN WORST SOMEONE HAVE TO GUARD THE DAMN ABALONES THROUGHOUT THEIR SHIFT THAT IS FREAKING B.O.R.I.N.G AND A WASTE OF TIME! WHAT IS THE POINT OF HAVING A CCTV THEN YOU FOOLS!?!

Another thing which really REALLY GETS ON MY NERVE is the fact that everyday i get reprimanded,scolded for things i DID NOT DO! OR OTHER THINGS THAT OTHER EMPLOYEES DO AND I GET BLAMED INSTEAD!! HOW THE HELL WOULD I KNOW EVERY DAMN PRODUCT IN SHOP N SAVE?! CUSTOMERS ASKED FOR THE IMPOSSIBLE OF THE POSSIBLE FROM ME!! I DON"T STUDY THE SHELVES! I WAS BROUGHT THERE TO WORK! NOT GET A WHOLE STACK OF INSULT + SCOLDING THROWN AT ME!! YOU ARE ONE L.U.C.K.Y SOB SHOP N SAVE!! I WAS RAISED BY A KIND WOMAN WHO TAUGHT ME BE PATIENT IF NOT BY NOW I WOULD HAVE SHOT F-BOMBS IN YOUR WAY!!! Or WORST MASSACRE THE INTEGRITY OF THE SHOP N SAVE WITH VULGARITY THAT IS OUT OF THIS WORLD!! I COULD HAVE SWORE THAT SHOP N SAVE IS BEING RUN BY IDIOTS WITH NO TEAM WORK! Why Fajar SHOP N SAVE TEAM MEMBERS SCOLDS EACH OTHER!! ISN'T THAT SPLENDID!?!?!!??/