My eyes are literally have eyebags (=_=)....
(∪｡∪)｡｡｡zzz.........
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What on earth am i doing?! I SHOULD BE AWAKE!! NOT ASLEEP!! arghhhh..(_ _)ヾ(‘ロ‘) hello? anyone in there? hahahahaha.......
Thursday, September 13, 2012
ZOMBIFIED!
My eyes are literally have eyebags (=_=)....
(∪｡∪)｡｡｡zzz.........
(╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻
What on earth am i doing?! I SHOULD BE AWAKE!! NOT ASLEEP!! arghhhh..(_ _)ヾ(‘ロ‘) hello? anyone in there? hahahahaha.......
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
A whole new world!
Finally! I CAN CARE LESS ABOUT THE WORLD! i finally let go of my habit to please others! Those who didn't appreciate while i was still at that so called "Pleasing Mode" YOU CAN SUCK YOUR OWN DICK (or vagina if you are a woman).
Foooh. Feels like a brand new day to me! hah no more emo mode! Happy happy! hahaha. But i'm still trying out this new dynamic mode of the blog. It seems cool but way advance in terms of editing the header background etc etc. Forgive me if it looks plain, i'll try to make it cooler in the next few days!
Now on to more pressing issues now that i'm free, Things to do,Let's update you guys or whoever reads this blog what i have been up to! First and Foremost, i am currently in Ngee Ann Polytechnic Year 2 in ECE division or Electronic and Computer Engineering division. My course is of course the titular division name which is ECE. Its one of the toughest course i have ever taken with math and electronic components to remember. Theories that are to be remembered all the way till the Final Year Project @_@. I'll try my best to remember them all! I am currently in several non-sport CCAs and only 1 sport cca which is sad! i been wanting to join sport cca for along. Oh speaking of which i quit dragonboat partially because its has been too much for me to handle it along with my studies so now i am currently self-training my body and afterwhich i will join back my karate dojo! muahahahahhaha! Secondly i want try out a couple of things like cooking dishes i have not done so, join a martial art tournament etc. This are the things i want to try out though!
Lastly i want to thank dear Jasmine Low Hui Min for your very old advice which was "Do not try to please everyone" i was a fool for not listening to you, i could have made my mental suffocation much easier -.-" hahaha!
Foooh. Feels like a brand new day to me! hah no more emo mode! Happy happy! hahaha. But i'm still trying out this new dynamic mode of the blog. It seems cool but way advance in terms of editing the header background etc etc. Forgive me if it looks plain, i'll try to make it cooler in the next few days!
Now on to more pressing issues now that i'm free, Things to do,Let's update you guys or whoever reads this blog what i have been up to! First and Foremost, i am currently in Ngee Ann Polytechnic Year 2 in ECE division or Electronic and Computer Engineering division. My course is of course the titular division name which is ECE. Its one of the toughest course i have ever taken with math and electronic components to remember. Theories that are to be remembered all the way till the Final Year Project @_@. I'll try my best to remember them all! I am currently in several non-sport CCAs and only 1 sport cca which is sad! i been wanting to join sport cca for along. Oh speaking of which i quit dragonboat partially because its has been too much for me to handle it along with my studies so now i am currently self-training my body and afterwhich i will join back my karate dojo! muahahahahhaha! Secondly i want try out a couple of things like cooking dishes i have not done so, join a martial art tournament etc. This are the things i want to try out though!
Lastly i want to thank dear Jasmine Low Hui Min for your very old advice which was "Do not try to please everyone" i was a fool for not listening to you, i could have made my mental suffocation much easier -.-" hahaha!
Friday, August 17, 2012
Reliability
I must admit this topic comes up a lot in my head, i'm always thinking "Am i reliable to people around me?" to the point that it affects my interaction with people.Sometimes i withdraw myself from social gatherings just so i could reflect upon myself and my rights to socialise with people. Apart from that i tend to think negatively about things around me surrounding my family and my friends.All this feelings could only be express in this blog which is my only source of expression in my world because no matter how much i try to express in my ways, people always gets the wrong message for example would be this evening at 7.15pm singapore time, i ask my mom why did she prepared dinner later, her reply was somehow different to my question, she told me that we never prepare food for guest during Hari Raya. Now this reply was very odd because what i ask was dinner at the present time and not about festivities food.So this comes off to me as unreliable because everyone of my questions has always been answered the same way by her so i tried to talk to her about it but as usual it ended the wrong way.
Another was that i asked her opinion on how to solve a problem that i currently have by giving her a table which i usually use for gaming i ended with a square shape table that consists a lower half that would not fit my 24 inches PC-TV. So being an ignorant one, i ask my mom on her opinion or in this case a solution that would help me with my problem but my mom reply was of one that really let me down and has lower down my self-esteem by a bit. You see i have this belief that a good child comes from good parents. In my case, i am apparently one of the worst child raised ever because based on past experiences and dealings with my mom who single-handedly raise me, i realise i have a very very unreliable mom who depends on others and her own spouse to do most of the thinking and despite all my positive thinking about her, her reply was one that disappoint me by far and has hurt my positive feelings i had about her. i told her that she's old and could not think anymore is saddening and her reply was that yes she's old and she could not think. i could only reply to her with sadness in my heart is "i thought i could rely on you, i thought you were old and wise but apparently you are not"
Her statement was one i could not let go of..Being old and making many mistakes, i thought she would have wise up over the years but i was greatly mistaken. Apparently being old does not equal to being wise. This was the glass-shattering truth that hits upon me, i was raised by an unreliable woman who my brains was born from, who i thought myself as pretty smart but sadly..it was just all wishful thinking on my part
You may think "Hey think positive! Now that you know you can change your whole outlook on life!" which is precisely what i am going to do! i am going to be a responsible person from now on! POSITIVE THINKING YO!
PS: but the matter with my mother is one i highly doubt that can be solve anymore. I give up.
Another was that i asked her opinion on how to solve a problem that i currently have by giving her a table which i usually use for gaming i ended with a square shape table that consists a lower half that would not fit my 24 inches PC-TV. So being an ignorant one, i ask my mom on her opinion or in this case a solution that would help me with my problem but my mom reply was of one that really let me down and has lower down my self-esteem by a bit. You see i have this belief that a good child comes from good parents. In my case, i am apparently one of the worst child raised ever because based on past experiences and dealings with my mom who single-handedly raise me, i realise i have a very very unreliable mom who depends on others and her own spouse to do most of the thinking and despite all my positive thinking about her, her reply was one that disappoint me by far and has hurt my positive feelings i had about her. i told her that she's old and could not think anymore is saddening and her reply was that yes she's old and she could not think. i could only reply to her with sadness in my heart is "i thought i could rely on you, i thought you were old and wise but apparently you are not"
Her statement was one i could not let go of..Being old and making many mistakes, i thought she would have wise up over the years but i was greatly mistaken. Apparently being old does not equal to being wise. This was the glass-shattering truth that hits upon me, i was raised by an unreliable woman who my brains was born from, who i thought myself as pretty smart but sadly..it was just all wishful thinking on my part
You may think "Hey think positive! Now that you know you can change your whole outlook on life!" which is precisely what i am going to do! i am going to be a responsible person from now on! POSITIVE THINKING YO!
PS: but the matter with my mother is one i highly doubt that can be solve anymore. I give up.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
April is a brand new week~
Good morning everyone, its 3.25am singapore time.i have yet to sleep despite school starting tomorrow. Why don't i sleep you ask? Good question but yet a question which i have answers to. The answer is simply that i am waiting for my S/W shirt to be done with the washing machine. Yeah im washing it late. i'll get back to you guys later after school...ah my bad i have to go to kee sun avenue today too so after that..Oh by the way Long story short; i met new friends, we bonded quite strongly. Currently studying for a diploma in electronic and computer engineering follow by a promotion to blue belt in karate (YESS ARR) oh and did i mention i am ngee ann poly year 1 now?
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Job
Hey everybody! This is Hairul, Posting after a long long break. Just so you know, I have achieved my dream of going to Polytechnic and i even surpassed my initial goal of 24 points for O levels! Well apart from that, my karate is going swimmingly well though i kept coming late because of dawdling and tiredness from work. Speaking of which, i totally hate my current job which is being a sales assistant in shop n save.
Firstly the job itself is not that hard but it can be QUITE BORING especially when there is no customers.
Secondly is the FACING OUT activity that irks me the most because the supervisors,Managers. Team Leaders are never happy with our facing out. All we gotta do is face out the brands and pull them towards the edge! Sounds easy right? Well apparently the supervisors are not HAPPY AT ALL FOR SOME MORONIC IDIOTIC REASON. Everyday me and yong meng and radzi will get reprimanded by the darn MANAGERS. I'm not even sure what we did wrong! They don't tell us and kept on annoying us with their "We know whether you are doing facing out or not" bullshit. I said its bullshit because they can't even tell the difference whether we DID THE FACE OUT OR NOT. To add on to our misery, they keep lecturing us on how we DIDN'T DO THE FACE OUT DESPITE THEIR INSTRUCTIONS. Well all i gotta say is WTF DID WE DO?! EVERYTIME WE TRIED TO DO IT, EITHER YOU OR SOMEBODY ELSE GOTTA PULL US OUT AND RESTOCK THE SHELVES AND EVEN WORST SOMEONE HAVE TO GUARD THE DAMN ABALONES THROUGHOUT THEIR SHIFT THAT IS FREAKING B.O.R.I.N.G AND A WASTE OF TIME! WHAT IS THE POINT OF HAVING A CCTV THEN YOU FOOLS!?!
Another thing which really REALLY GETS ON MY NERVE is the fact that everyday i get reprimanded,scolded for things i DID NOT DO! OR OTHER THINGS THAT OTHER EMPLOYEES DO AND I GET BLAMED INSTEAD!! HOW THE HELL WOULD I KNOW EVERY DAMN PRODUCT IN SHOP N SAVE?! CUSTOMERS ASKED FOR THE IMPOSSIBLE OF THE POSSIBLE FROM ME!! I DON"T STUDY THE SHELVES! I WAS BROUGHT THERE TO WORK! NOT GET A WHOLE STACK OF INSULT + SCOLDING THROWN AT ME!! YOU ARE ONE L.U.C.K.Y SOB SHOP N SAVE!! I WAS RAISED BY A KIND WOMAN WHO TAUGHT ME BE PATIENT IF NOT BY NOW I WOULD HAVE SHOT F-BOMBS IN YOUR WAY!!! Or WORST MASSACRE THE INTEGRITY OF THE SHOP N SAVE WITH VULGARITY THAT IS OUT OF THIS WORLD!! I COULD HAVE SWORE THAT SHOP N SAVE IS BEING RUN BY IDIOTS WITH NO TEAM WORK! Why Fajar SHOP N SAVE TEAM MEMBERS SCOLDS EACH OTHER!! ISN'T THAT SPLENDID!?!?!!??/
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
JISSEN
Hello! My fellow readers,bloggers,friends,classmate whatever you are! i am having the best time of the month! playing games, going for karate hence the above title! YES ITS TRUE! I JOINED KARATE CLASS! AND I GOT MY KARATE GI(uniform in this case) ALREADY! Oh man! how fun it is learning karate! I gotta tell you the karate sensei..woooweeeee super strong! why just yesterday i was learning how to have the proper form and kick the mitt. Without knowing what to do, i ask sensei ...errrr....what's his name again? calvin? i think. The kyoshi was sensei edmond. damn both of them have a mean kick! i mean , sensei calvin(?) kick the mitt and my hand was like (OMGWTFBBQ~!@#$%) damn it was painful! i heard a cracking sound on my wrist!! what does that tell you eh?!
Apart from karate, i went to an interview together with Zi hui and Seng Ann. Boy it was very very....long. The interview keep dragging for two hours! You know how long that is?! its like a freaking eternity you hear me?! AN ETERNITY!!!! not just a year but more like infinity of years where i can't even determine the time! sitting with my ass that feels like it wanna shit is ridiculous! The interviewer tends to speak at the 3.00 to the power of 8 which is the speed of light! you would think i exaggerate, well i do. but who cares! this is my blog ain't it!
Apart from karate, i went to an interview together with Zi hui and Seng Ann. Boy it was very very....long. The interview keep dragging for two hours! You know how long that is?! its like a freaking eternity you hear me?! AN ETERNITY!!!! not just a year but more like infinity of years where i can't even determine the time! sitting with my ass that feels like it wanna shit is ridiculous! The interviewer tends to speak at the 3.00 to the power of 8 which is the speed of light! you would think i exaggerate, well i do. but who cares! this is my blog ain't it!
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Study..
Currently on moments of force..skipped school for two days..now im self-studying at home. Overslept again. Oh well. guess im addicted to games and computers and too used to getting good sleep..so im self-studying at home..how do you find the upward force anyway?
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